2012 is not even 8 weeks old and so much has happened. It is now less than 4 weeks until the Bath Half Marathon. It has been a rollercoaster so many new experiences including two cross-country runs, two parkruns, one half marathon distance training run, two blisters, losing feelings in countless fingers and toes, running longer and further than I have ever done previous. I am not being boastful just still in disbelief that this is me doing it. It isn’t all easy though.
Yesterday I lined up at my second 10km race, Capital Runners 10km in Bushy Park. It was a hard race. I used to think the hardest part would be the bit between the start line and finish line. During the race it felt easy, almost too easy, sure I was breathing hard but I had been on harder runs. I kept thinking I wasn’t pushing hard enough. On the 1st January I ran 10km in 58.50 , yesterday, yesterday I ran 53.05. During the run I realised that training isn’t just the bit between start and end markers, it is everything, eating, sleeping, resting and running. Hard parts can often appear small unexpected things.
- Hard is putting your socks on the right foot
- Hard is putting my trainers on when I just can’t be bothered
- Hard is making it to the start line when I can think of 101 excuses
- Hard is overcoming my “I can’t”, “there is no way” thoughts
- Hard is being proud of my achievements and not diminishing them
- Hard is lightning up, letting my body rest and recover when I actually want to go for a run
- Hard is organising life in order to make the time to go for a run
- Hard is standing freezing at the bus stop en-route to a run knowing that my nice warm bed is nearby and who would know if I went back
- Hard is going out knowing that I am going to return with no feeling in my fingers
- Hard is not beating myself up because I don’t think that I am trying hard
- Hard is going to bed when there is a good tv show on in order to get enough sleep to get up and fight another fight
Some of these are harder than others, most days I focus on the positives and get my trainers on and feel good when I get back. Everyone has struggles I can only deal with mine. Hard was realising how overweight I was, not being overwhelmed by the enormity of it and taking it one day at a time. I will have won so much just standing at the start line. No matter what my time is at Bath Half I know all the hard parts that I have gone through and survived, they are what makes the race easy.